2022.12.03

Yesterday I...

• Woke up

• Went to studio

• Worked until 3pm with Claudia

• Had curry I packed for lunch

• Picked up cig

• Lyft to Brooklyn Museum to meet up with Matias

• Saw Nillie Mae Rowe show, Duke Reilly, and Monet to Morisot

• We went to Italian restaurant that Matias and I met up for the first time one on one in nyc

• We went back to my apartment

• Chatted with Anna and Magnus for second

• Had sex

• Went to Market Hotel to go see Smerz live

• We drank 3-4 whiskey soda

• I danced so hard

• Got home had sex and fell asleep (both were too drunk to cum)

Today I...

• Woke up briefly with crippling anxiety of not knowing what I have done last night

• Had to wake up Matias to ask and then I was able to puzzle the pieces together

• Felt much better after hearing him saying I didn't do anything weird

• We stayed in the bed until 1pm dozing on and off

• Finally got up and had some curry, seaweed soup, black tea

• Decided to go see All the Beauty and the Bloodshed. It's a documentary on Nan Goldin, opioid crisis, aids action, death, abuse, and life.

• Before leaving we had one more sex lol this time I had tampon in so no intercourse but I dry humped and gave him head (first time deep throating Matias). He told me last night that he is actually quite vanilla hahahaha I asked him if he had kink. We will see if I can open up to him about my kink. We will see....

• Went to this Mediteranean restaurant called Miriam in downtown BK. Food was really good. Couldn't finish tho. Big portion.

• And then we walked over to Brooklyn Music Center and watched the documentary.

• After the documentary, we walked over to train station. Gave each other awkward kiss again lol I love hahaha

• Took the wrong train of course

• Got off Utica

• Picked up Korean ramen, kale, citrus honey tea, chocolate, and egg

• Came home

• Ate ramen and chocolate watched Minumsa yt videos

• Washed face

• Now I'm writing this blog post